Overheard

So its 11.54pm and i felt the need to write this down.

So about 5 minutes ago, my mum and my sister were having a little fight (well, technically our "little" fights are usually very big). My sister wants to professionally compete in Muay Thai fights. And like the concerning parents, my parents are they obviously were shocked and due to that shock they reflexed by saying "no". And like the defensive and independant woman my sister is, she fought back, saying its her body that's going to be bruised and ultimately it's her choice. In these kind of situations i tend to stay back, in this case i could barely hear anything, as i was listening to Mariah Carey and Luther Vandross - Endless Love.

I know that if i ever defended my sister my parents would most probably either, a) disown me or b) kick me out of the house or c) send me into a state of utter despair, humiliation and depression. First off, i think she is ready for it. Anyone who has seen my sister train would understand what i mean. Sure it's not the same just punching a bag continuously, every now and then throwing in a dodge or a block. But she knows what she's doing. She practises on me =S. I'm not going to go on about religion and say that your body is a temple therefore you must treasure it and take good care of it. I do believe in that, to some degree. Your body is a temple, but if you want to maybe alter the decorations a bit, add some carpet, hang some ornaments, paint the walls, its your decision, seeing as it is your temple. So yeah, if my parentals ever asked me if i think its a good idea to let me sister fight, i'd say, why not.

On the other hand, i understand completely what my parents are on about. Their oldest daughter, the "successful" one in their eyes, the independant one, the "responsible" one, prancing around in a ring throwing punches, kickes, dodging, getting smashed in the face, potentially suffering from internal bleeding and maybe a fracture here and there; it obviously isn't a picture any parent would want to envision. I feel the same way, although i would love to see my older sister beat the shit out of some random girl i'd probably have some sort of fit or faint if she ever got extremely hurt. Any bet, when i have kids (if i ever do!) and they ask me if they can fight, i'd probably say the same thing that my parents did to my sister.

They may not understand now that she has great potential, but sooner or later they'll come around. Every parent gives in to their children's needs and demands, its inevitable. For example, a 6 year old boy is in Big W with his mother and they just randomly stumbled upon the latest Ben 10 "action figure"/doll. The little boy grabs the toy and runs to catch up with his mother who just so happens to be browsing around in the "undergarments/lingerie" section. The boy pleads and begs to his mother to buy it for him. She says no, and instructs her son to put it back where he found it. But like the stubborn and excited little boy he is, he must have it, therefore he starts to describe why he must have the toy.

"But mum it glows in the dark! So i'll be able to play with it in the dark and my best friend Pete has one."

But ofcourse mother says no once more, but this time she grabs the toy and places it in a nearby trolley and grabs her son. The little boy is crying, making the biggest scene in the store. The mother obviously doesn't want people to think she's a bad mother and she hates feeling guilty. They get home, boy is gasping for air after his little tantrum in the store and sitting on his bed is the new doll that his mother called her husband to get whilst on his way home. Its human nature.

Cesar's birthday =)

It's late, but i havent had the time to write anything about my "interesting" life. So i shall begin again today.

Last Saturday couple of mates and I went to celebrate one of my closest friends birthday, CESAR COMISSI. Yeah, just an awesome night with my friends, being a rebel without a cause. Pretty much it was Blacktown station, Granville Station, Town Hall, Chinese Laundry, Maccas, Bar 333, Chinese Laundry, Maccas, Karaoke ;), Maccas, KFC and home.

There was other stuff on the way like the random monkeys and rat/bear whatever the fuck it was. And us bitching in front of the Lindt Store about life and the "others", and like the Asians we are (even though Cesar is technically not Asian), lots of photos on the way, cause thats how we roll =D. And this time, no creepy guys tried to hit on me. YES! But a creepy dude tried to hit on Christina and Charmaine, lets just call him "Leslie" after Lesbain =).

Then last Friday was our little "soiree". Beef hearts and fish .. yummy, seriously I'm not joking here. You have to set aside the fact that it's beef heart and just eat it, I'm just thankful it wasn't guinea pigs, no offence Cesar =P.

Then there was Mat's birthday. I bought him fish =). I name the white one Ma-Ti after the "Heart" planeteer, who lacks any special powers, just the ability to continually get captured and talk to animals. Unfortunately, it died before i actually gave it to him. Poor thing, it had like a Nemo style fin, except it was the Caudal fin not the Pectoral fin =(. For you non-animal scientists Caudal fin is the massive fin at the back, and Pectoral fin is the ones on the side, the deformed one that Nemo has. Man i love throwing these words around.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Yesterday, i completely forgot one of the most special events in my life. No exaggeration. From all the excitement of meeting up with my friends, shopping around Parra, planning people's weddings and reminiscing about schoolies, life back in Year 12 and other eventful moments in our lives, i completely forgot a special birthday .. So,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN BARNES!!!!

That is all =D

people these days

So yesterday, i took the train home from East Richmond to Marayong with my friend Miz .. we got to about Windsor and there was this girl on the seat to our left. Miz was reading her book and i was playing bejeweled on my phone, the other girl was reading her book too .. Till she rang someone and all hell broke loss (not really)

This girl, had the loudest voice ever! She was on the phone to on of her friends and OMG! HAVE SOME RESPECT BITCH TO OTHER PEOPLE IN THE CARRIAGE! From what i remember:

"OMG, did you hear that Jennifer is going out with Glen's best friend? ... YEAH! totally i know right, i can't believe she did that .. You know that guy from Canberra? He is like your friends friend .. Yeah Steve, anyway he had a housewarming up there and she met him and they formed their own little group and starting to go on outings .. YEAH! I KNOW RIGHT!"

Sure the conversation sounds nice to eavesdrop on, but this girl was in her 20's or something, i'd say 22, and she was talking on the phone like some teenager with juicy gossip. HAVE SOME RESPECT BITCH! This conversation went on from Windsor to Marayong, where i got off, yet she was still on the phone by the time i got off the train .. Who know's how long she was talking for.

my latest obsession

alright, so over the past couple of weeks i've been finally reading New Moon, you know the sequel to the infamous Twilight? Yeah, and i know i'm going to get fried for reading New Moon, especially by Katrina and Cesar, but in my defence, i didn't like the movie. So yeah anyway, i've been reading it for a couple of weeks, and previously i was what some teenies call a "Team Edward" fan. Yet recently after reading New Moon, reading about Jacob Black's amazing growth spurt, more tall, muscular, tanned to even taller, more masculine, and cropped hair, DUDE! As Cesar puts it, "teenage orgasm!". Jacob is so hot! I sound like such a tb, hehehehe. Some Taylor/Jacob fans are insane. Here's a comment from a YouTube video on Taylor and Robert on the Tyra Show: "omg i used to date taylor. he lost his virginity to me, but he dumped me cous my vagina ..." yeah i don't remember the rest, the comment now has been deleted. Shame =P, first time i saw it i laughed.

"Team Jacob!"

That's all i wanted to share =D.

Cleaning Out My Closet

Where's my snare, I have no snare in my headphones, there ya' go, yeah, yo', yo'...

Have you ever been hated or discriminated against, I have, i've been protested and demonstrated against, picket signs for my wicked rhymes, look at the times, sick is the mind of the motherfuckin' kid that's behind, all this commotion, emotions run deep as ocean's explodin',tempers flaring from parents, just blow 'em off and keep goin', not takin' nothin' from no one,give 'em hell long as i'm breathin', keep kickin' ass in the mornin', an' takin' names in the evening, leave 'em with a taste as sour as vinegar in they mouth, see they can trigger me but they'll never figure me out, look at me now, I bet ya' probably sick of me now, ain't you mama,i'ma make you look so ridiculous now...

[CHORUS]I'm sorry mama, I never meant to hurt you, I never meant to make you cry, but tonight i'm cleanin' out my closet, {one more time}, I said i'm sorry mama, I never meant to hurt you, Inever meant to make you cry, but tonight i'm cleanin' out my closet...

I got some skeletons in my closet and I don't know if no one knows it, so before they thrown me inside my coffin and close it, i'ma expose it, i'll take you back to '73, before I ever had a multi-platinum sellin' Cd, I was a baby, maybe I was just a couple of months, my faggot father must have had his pantie's up in a bunch, cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye,no I don't on second thought, I just fuckin' wished he would die, I look at Hailie and I couldn't picture leavin' her side, even if I hated Kim, I grit my teeth and I'd try, to make it work with her at least for Hailie's sake, I maybe made some mistakes but i'm only human, but i'mman enough to face them today, what I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb, but the smartest shit I did was take them bullets out of that gun, cause id'a killed 'em, shit I would have shot Kim and him both, it's my life, i'd like to welcome y'all to the Eminem show...

[CHORUS]

Now I would never diss my own mama just to get recognition, take a second to listen who you think this record is dissin', but put yourself in my position, just try to envision witnessin' your Mama poppin' prescription pills in the kitchen, bitchin' that someone's always goin' through her purse and shits missin', going through public housing systems, victim of Munchausen's syndrome, my whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't 'til I grew up, now I blew up, it makes you sick to ya' stomach, doesn't it, wasn't it the reason you made that Cd for me, ma, so you could try to justify the way you treated me, ma, but guess what, your gettin' older now and it's cold when your lonely, and Nathan's growing up so quick, he's gonna know that your phoney, and Hailie's getting so big now, you should see her, she's beautiful, but you'll never see her, she won't even be at your funeral, see what hurts me the most is you won' tadmit you was wrong, bitch, do your song, keep tellin' yourself that you was a mom, but how dare you try to take what you didn't help me to get, you selfish bitch, I hope you fuckin' burn inhell for this shit, remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me, well guess what, I am dead, dead to you as can be...

[CHORUS]

















I don't like this song because he is bitching about his mother, I like this song because the lyrics are truly honest, the intensity and emotion in his voice is so powerful, you can tell it's all real, not that artificial type where people "imagine" what it is like to have a bad relationship with their mother.

future?

I've been asked thousands of times what i want to be when i grow up, or at least what i want to achieve out of the course I'm doing right now. I have many answers to those people, depending on how is saying it and how they say it. Like for example, a complete stranger on the bus asked me what i wanted to achieve out of my course. I didn't want to seem like I'm doing the course because it sounds interesting nor did i want him to think i have no complete idea what i want to do, but then again because of the fact that i am still a first year student, you have to sound uncertain. So i told him, "preferably something in research. Maybe a little bit of reproductive technologies and breeding programs."

Another example, a family member asks me what type of jobs are you going to look for when you graduate? Now with these type of people i want to let them know that i have thought truly hard about what i want. I want them to know I'm prepared and have pretty much planned out my life for the next five or so years. So i tell them "I want to do something in terms of training. With dogs, for law enforcement or as guide dogs or even horses." And they usually all gasp in excitement asking me to train their dogs as soon as i graduate.

Now friends. When it comes to friends you want them to know you've got everything under control, you may not know exactly what you want to do, but you're certain you're in the right place. So i tell them "I'll see where this course takes me."

I have a couple of friends who know EXACTLY what they want, the duration it will take them to get there and the people and places they must see and be at. For example, one of my closest friends (they shall remain unnamed) has their life set out for pretty much till they are about 30. Finish degree in three years, one year of honors, doctorate, PhD and find a job doing what they've been studying for. Now i find that remarkable, to know what you want at their age. AMAZING!

Another friend of mine knows they want to work with dogs no matter what. It doesn't matter what it is, as long as its with dogs. At least they know to some degree where they want to go in life.

Another person i know does this course that i would have never guessed, mainly because they don't seem like the type to want to study it. They seem more like a "health" based student. More about sports rather than what they are doing now. And when i think hard about it, even though i don't really KNOW this person, i have no idea what they wish to achieve out of that course.

It gets me thinking, people often wonder why i am doing animal science considering i am a very picky girl. I hate reptiles, i LOATHE frogs, birds are a nuisance, i dislike cats and i wonder why rats even exist. I remember i wanted to become a forensic scientist. C.S.I sugar-coated forensic science so much! I wanted to be a doctor once in my life. I also wanted to be a child-care worker, primary school teacher, photographer and even a writer. I'm confusing, i know =P. But right now, I'm quiet happy with what I'm doing in uni. It has opened my eyes to so many things. I remember the first time i got to work with the horse, i was so freaked out! And after a while there was just that connection. The feeling that, if this is what being an animal scientist is about, getting to experience the great joy and passion of animals which we tend to neglect. Then I'm happy to be an animal scientist in training.

Although i don't know what i want to do exactly with my course, I do have other arrangements.

• Join Greenpeace
• Join WIRES
• Get married
• Have three kids
• Travel the world with a friend
• Travel to China and help in the panda reserves
• FIND A JOB!!!
• Finally get my P's
• Stay in contact with my friends
• Graduate

apple iphone

this blog isn't intended for me to brag about the things i get and buy, nor the things that i get up to. It's just things i want to express and i apologize in advanced if i have offended anyone who has bee reading my blog and thought, "lucky bitch. why does she have to rub it in for?". So, sorry.

Anyways, no bragging intended, i got a new phone. An iphone to be exact. My original plan was to get an itouch, considering my ipod is dying on me. My next button doesn't work and in order to change songs i either have to go backwards, pick a song from the menu or scroll forward, and i dont like to mess up the order of the songs i listen to. You see, before going to bed i play a specific song that i know will help me to sleep or a song that i can dream about. And after that i like to have another song which sort of relates. So in general i dont like listening to my hard out rock songs whilst going to bed, unless its a slow rock song; nor do i like listening to stuff like Britney before going to bed, no offence.

So anyway, original plan was to get an itouch and a new phone considering my contract was going to end soon. So i suggested to my mum if i get an itouch and a touch phone like the nokia 5800? And she said why dont you get something with everything in it. And bam! IPHONE! =P

Enough about the iphone, so anyway, OH! Today at approximately 5pm the Matmobile (the car i take to uni) unfortunately broke down on Richmond Road =(. Yes tragic i know. RIP Matmobile. Also RIP Cory Aquino, i know its not the same thing, a car and a real person but the Matmobile was "like" a person. So mcuh personality =P.

Hawkesbury Agricultural College

I thought i'd time some time to really appreciate my uni. People tend to think that UWS is an acronym for U WENT SHIT, and i beg to differ. It doesn't matter on what UAI you got, but really what uni has to right resources available depending on your course. I mean if you wanted to do an arts degree, my uni isn't exactly the right choice.

I always complain about the driveway at uni. I hate walking up that long driveway watching the cars drive by laughing their heads off and blasting their music for all to hear. The driveway seems to go for ages, but yesterday when i walked up the driveway, sunny day, clear skies and the cool breeze brushing up against my cheek, it was then that i only realised what true peace and serenity mean't.

See most people don't know where my uni is, or they don't take the time to truly appreciate how beautiful my uni is. When i tell them, my uni is pretty much one massive farm, their immediate response is "ewww, you go to uni on a farm?". Well yes i do, it's so nice to just sit down on the grass (yes, we have grass unlike a certain uni who has a small patch of grass) and listen to the wind.

You usually don't see much people wandering around H.A.C (Hawkesbury Agricultural College). The uni is so big, i havent even seen the other half of it yet. I see the same people everyday because we're in the same course, but my other friends in other courses i hardly get to see. I guess thats the downside to my uni. Yet this is also a good thing. Most, well really all city or near the city based uni's such as Parramatta UWS, UTS or UNSW (don't judge me, i'm assuming) are overcrowded. People are too busy to talk to one another, because they are running from one half of the campus to the other bumping into people, trying to squeeze through the crowd. That's what i dont like. Then again i could be wrong, prove me wrong people. I just find my uni more intimate with one another. Again, prove me wrong.

Oh, and i must not forget the animals =D. Most people are shocked to hear we have deer on campus, i was too. They amaze me everyday we drive by the deer lot. July is the time of year when sheep give birth, so we were fortunate enough to see some births. Unfortunately, we didnt actually get to SEE anything, instead we got TOLD. The little lambs are so cute, running around in circle, chasing mummy's udder. The cows aren't that special, but still the fact that we get to touch and interact with the cows is awesome. Horses are awesome! Although they are quiet dangerous if you don't treat it right, they are some of the most magical and beautiful animals in the world. Oh, again i'm obliged to mention we have reptiles on campus (i hate our reptile house, not because Jason runs the reptile house, but because i think reptiles are gross). I always hated rats, i thought they were the most vile and disgusting creatures on earth. Feeding off the scraps of humans, running through the sewers, YUCK. But seeing them at uni, they weren't THAT bad. I thought they were quiet cute. Then again they were caged and sleeping, but apparently before we saw them, they got a little bit rowdy during feeding time.

In general, for those who said they would visit me, but haven't. Please do =). It's not paradise, then again its not a dump.

My new sensation

Muay thai: also known as "The Art of Eight Limbs" (two hands, two elbows, two knees and two shins); commonly practised in many of the Southeast Asian countries, like Thailand, this form of martial arts has made champions of people such as John Wayne Parr and Yodsaenklai. And man how much i love doing it =P.

Recently, well more like a couple of weeks ago, a group of friends and i picked up this martial arts because i was pressured by my sister to ask my friends if they wanted to join. So about three of us joined and today was probably our fourth or fifth lesson at the small but effective gym IWAK.

At first the four of us were such noobs. Every second the trainer would have to stop and slow down so that we would be able to get the correct techniques and combinations "45 degree angle", "hands up to defend", "we're not in karate", "kick with the shin", "make the "ish"". Oh! Speaking of the "ish", i am happy to announce that i have used my first "ish" in muay thai. YEAH! SNAPS FOR ME! The "ish" is the little or loud i should be saying, sound which you use for that powerful kick or punch. Sort of gives it more "umph".

Anyway, now we've decided to do two lessons a week =P instead of our usual one on the Monday night. And we've brought along some friends, well, yeah i guess they are friends?

There's something about muay thai that i love, not just the fact that i do it, but it makes me feel good about myself, more than just powerful. I feel confident, thats the word =D. I strongly recommend. I seriously need new shorts =S.