Day 30

"highs and lows of this month"

Christmas is definitely one of the main highs of this month. On the religious side and the gathering part of it all. I hardly get to see my cousins and relatives; we've all gotten distant lately and since my family is the smallest out of the rest of our cousins we're often the ones left out of everything (my cousins also say its because they think my dad is scary =P). It was just really nice to spend Christmas with my cousins, playing scattergories, talking about whats going on with our lives and swimming in the pool.

Christmas this year though has also been kinda, slow? Dead? Uneventful? It just seems like another ordinary day of the week. I mean everyone spends so much money buying presents and receiving presents that no one really nowadays understands the true meaning of Christmas, or should I say CHRISTmas. The birth of Christ. It's Jesus's birthday. And I understand that Christmas is the holiday of giving, but more people just seem to be more into the receiving bit, and the gifts people get are getting more and more extravagant every year. Like my nephew last year got a skateboard or a bike (one of them), this year he got this Android like iPad. Let's just say something similar to the iPad. He is 13 and he got something that extreme for Christmas. When I was 13 I remember getting "Guess Who" the board game for Christmas. To me this year, Christmas was just another reason for parents to spoil their children rotten. That was a definite low of this month. That people had lost the true meaning of Christmas. The birth of Christ.

Another high of this month was getting to hang out with my old high school friends. Especially the other day where four of us spent five hours (with a twenty minute break) playing "Halo", like we used to back in high school after sports on Thursday afternoons. It was just nice to sit back and reminisce about everything. I love my friends so much, I hate how distant we've become over the past two years.

One that I am looking forward for is New Years. A new year, a new start; new adventures, new challenges; meeting new people and all of the above. I really hope 2011 is going to be a good year for me. Fingers crossed.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Years to everyone =D.

Day 29

"goal for the next 30 days"

- lose those Xmas kilos (and everything else =P)

- sort of this business of my client for next year for uni, so screwed for leaving it last minute

- keep saving my dayum money

- enjoy the last bit of the holidays I have till I have to start this dumb 3rd year project

- figure out what I really wanna do with my uni degree

- try to hang out with ALL my friends during the holidays

- work work and more work

"It is a fair, even-headed, noble adjustment of things, that while there is infection in disease and sorrow, there is nothing in the world so irresistibly contagious as laughter and good humour"

Charles Dickens, A Christmas Carol

Day 28

"something that you miss"

Working with my old red rooster buddies and hanging out like old times with my high school mates. Working at the pet store is completely different than red rooster. Don't get me wrong, I love working at the pet store, meeting new people, hearing different stories about people with their pets and playing around with the dogs and cats, but what I really miss is actually working with people who I can talk with and joke around with every day. At the pet store, it's just me and the manager whereas at red rooster its me, the manager and everyone else who would be working that day. I got so close to everyone that they were like family to me. It was great just fooling around with them, telling stories and just being plain stupid with one another. I still do visit them (because to get to my work, I pass red rooster) and we all hang out, but I still miss the actual working part.

My old high school friends and I do not really hang out anymore. We have mainly all separated into smaller groups and have done our own separate things. I miss the days when at lunch we played UNO and spoons and talked about nonsense and joked around about everything. Now a days everyone is too busy, either working, already have plans with other friends or just plain tired from the night before or from work or some other mumbo jumbo. I just wish all the drama we went through would end and we could all hang out with one another like we used to.

Day 27

"a problem you once had"

It's more of a problem I actually have now. I tend to be very gullible, especially when it comes to guys and relationships. I haven't had any type of "those" relationships, but whenever I fall for a guy, I think the world of them. I believe that we have a connection that no one else shares; that we talk into the night about our hobbies and interests or just about other things that amuse us. When we are together it's just magical because we have inside jokes, we continue on our conversations from the previous night and joke and play/flirt around with each other.

But the problem here is, whenever they do something bad to me and I know it, I ALWAYS give them a second chance and let them get away with it. I believe in change. Everyone can change for the better because of that one special person. And for some odd reason I believe that one special person is always me. I can recall this happening at least three times in the past two years. You'd think I would learn from past mistakes, but I'm the type person who, when the opportunity comes, I latch on and won't let go until I am told so myself by the guy. Then again, I'm alway the "go-to-girl" who the guy consoles in whenever his girlfriend isn't around. I personally am 50-50 when it comes to situations like it. I don't mind the innocent flirting, but when you go overboard and expect me to not say anything to your girlfriend and expect me to be ok with you leading me on like that, then that is when I go psycho.

So problem I once and still have, being gullible.

Day 26

"what kind of person attracts you?"

PASTEY WHITE MAN!!!

Jokes. First and foremost, I want a MAN not a boy. But in all honesty, I look for guys who a great sense of humour. Even though I tend to laugh at everything and at the most inappropriate times, I want a relationship that is based upon friendship and to talk and joke about things like I would with my friends.

I also look for guys who are tall ;). I am tall myself, and I personally don't really like that. It's a pain to wear heels with my friends who are WAY shorter than I, which makes me look like a giant. So I want man who looks down at me (not in a bad way), so that we can look all cute with me on my toes to reach him.

I want a guy who can prioritise. I don't like couples where they completely disregard their friends and spend almost every waking hour with each other. It's cute (well really not) that they like to spend time with each other, but thats how couples lose friends.

I like guys with great fashion sense. Not too branded, but know how to dress themselves in a respectable manner. NO pants hanging below the ass, NO rat tails, NO tracksuit pants with rubber shoes. So pretty much nothing like a LAD.

Day 25

"someone you fascinates you and why"

That's actually quite a personal one, he is one of my friends who I used to work with at Red Rooster. At first I didn't exactly talk to his boy, purely because he was quite .. quiet and awkward I guess you could say. He used to turn up to work really early and wouldn't start till his shift started, on the dot. Before he started he would walk back and forth in the store and stretch and do all these weird things. Anyway I guess one day I finally took up the courage to talk to him and make conversation. Turns out he was a nice, interesting guy who has a lot to say about everything and everyone.

Anyway, one day he turned up to work one day and was in tears. He was angry and upset and all that is sad and depressing. And it struck me, not only because I haven't really seen a guy cry before, but this guy who was always talking and laughing with everyone, making jokes and all that jazz was in tears and crying like there everything and everyone in the world hurt him. I heard this story, as to why he was in tears. The things I learnt that day forever changed my perspective on him. He was no longer the awkward boy who stretched during work and talked non sense and walked back and forth in work, he was, as cliche as it sounds, my friend.

But what really fascinates me, is that, through all the adversity he goes through, all the hard times and the depressing moments of his life, he still manages to remain strong and live life to the fullest. He doesn't take shit from anyone and lives by his own rules.

Day 24

"your favourite movie and what it's about"

Moulin Rouge. Epic musical is the eternal message of:

"the greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love and be loved in return".

Nicole isn't exactly the best singer, but definitely good enough to play the role of Satin. It's all about four elements, truth, beauty, freedom and above all things love. Typical poor boy loves rich girl story but with a musical twist. I am a big fan of musicals and this one touched my heart.

Day 23

"give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive"

every girl loves a bad boy ;)

on the side, she needs a good laugh. quirky yet sophisticated ;)

down-to-earthness is always essential ;)

men with accents are a plus ;)

older men as more "experienced" ;)

How To Be An Explorer Of The World

Day 22

"how have you changed in the past two years?"

Two years ago, around this very time, I had finished high school, received all my results and UAI for the HSC, no job and still very close with my friends. As I look back, I've lost some of my closest friends (to a degree), HSC results don't mean squat to me anymore, the tears I wasted sobbing over my UAI were just childish now and I've had two jobs.

How have I changed? I guess now I've become a maturer person. The little things that I once made big deals about, no longer affect me as they used to. Yes I'm still in university, but I guess without the spoon-feeding and the constant reminders to do certain assignments or certain tasks or homework in general (which I never do regardless if they say we should or not), I've become more independent. I've learnt and realised now that, there isn't going to be someone there to wait on me hand and foot and that when I age, I must learn these things now so that when I do plan on having a family of my own, I can walk into any task confident in myself.

Some people have also said I've become more wise. I personally don't call it wisdom, but more or less, common sense. My younger friends come to me for advice and they sit in awe as I speak like I've had years of experience in these type of situations (mainly boy problems, as always). When really, I've had no experience and speaking from common sense. So how has I changed from the past two years? I've acquired a greater sense of common sense.

Day 21

"one of your favourite t.v shows"

I have quite a few favourite shows, but I guess my all time favourite t.v show is FRIENDS. I didn't really like it when it was actually airing on television on channel nine, but that was purely because half the jokes I did not understand (my age and level of maturity at the time was to blame). But now, everything makes sense. Chandler's sarcasm, the sexual innuendos, the guest appearances of "certain" people and all of the above. But mostly what I love about the show is that no matter how many times you watch certain episodes, the hilarity of it will never cease. Despite the recurring plots of Rachel getting back with Ross, Rachel breaking up with Ross, Janice popping up everywhere and whatever it always remains funny.

WORST DAY EVER!

I'd like to take the time to vent our my emotions about this day...

Ok, so it starts off pretty okay. Woke up to some lovely messages from my beloved Cesar who always cheers me up with his little sarcastic messages and his adorable voicemails that are always longer than they are supposed to be. Anyway, texted a couple more people knowing that their HS results and ATAR's are released today. Some disappointed, others ecstatic, but overall I am proud of them all. Twenty minutes to get ready and catch my bus, mum tells me to hang the clothes up, its drizzling outside. Is she serious? It's raining and she wants me to hang the clothes up? Oh well, her loss. Ten minutes to go till my bus arrives, still haven't eaten breakfast yet, but its ready. Burn my fingers on the sandwich press. Five minutes to go till my bus comes, massive stomach pains. Stuff it, run to the bus stop. It's actually on time for once.

So I'm at Westpoint around noon and decide to walk around a bit, explore, do a little stalking on a certain someone at an electronics store ;). He's working today, goodie. That has remotely made my day. 12.25pm, decide its about time to walk to work. 12.30pm, walk in, my boss looks at me like, wtf are you doing here?

"I start at 12.30, like the roster says, yeah?"

Check the roster out, 16.00 - 22.00. WTF?!?! When did it change? I even had it written on my phone, THURSDAY: 12.30 - 17.00.

"Everyone knows that once I've made the roster, I don't change it". Well I'm sorry boss, but YOU DID CHANGE IT! Not only does he claim that he didn't change the roster around, I had proof. I wrote on my phone, THURSDAY: 12.30 - 17.00 and TUESDAY: 14.00 - 21.00. The "new" roster now says THURSDAY: 16.00 - 22.00, MONDAY: 14.00 - 18.00 and TUESDAY: 13.00 - 21.00. Ok, now I can excuse the change in times, but now I'm working another day? I'm not complaining, but when you change the roster around like that, and I know I'm only supposed to work two days, that is where I get aggravated. IF YOUR GOING TO CHANGE THE ROSTER AROUND, TELL ME! THIS IS BOGUS!!

12.35pm, I decide I am not going to spend another three hours in Westpoint, trying to not spend my money. So I decide I'm going home. 12.40pm, it looks dark and gloomy outside, oh no, its going to rain soon, but it doesn't bother me, because I am already pissed enough as it is. 12.50pm, on the bus on my way home. About halfway on my way home on Pank Parade, it starts drizzling again. It's all good, a little rain never hurt anyone. As we head back onto Richmond Rd, oh dear no, it's hailing. FML! It's ok, I can run fast enough to avoid getting heavily drenched on. 1pm, got off the bus, FARK! It's worse than I thought. I take two steps off the bus and I am already drenched in rain, run home I thought. Yet I only realised now, that running in the rain actually gets you wetter (known fact, apparently on Mythbusters), so stupid move of me. What made it worse was one of my old teachers drove past and saw me, drenched in rain, running home.

1.57pm, finished ranting on about my day.

Day 20

"how important you think education is"

Education is VERY important. But to me, education isn't just the things we learn in school or from the books we read from in the library; it's also about the life skills we learn from experiences. Gaining education from the things we do in the big wide world and teaching them to others, like how to ride a bike, then teaching your son, daughter, brother or sister; or learning how to deal with life threatening situations that cannot be taught in books.

Education does get us far in life, but again, not just the education we get taught in school, but things we learn out of school. Teaches us how to survive and live a better and longer life.

The things we learn now, and the things we pass down to our children will forever be vital to the next generations to come.

Day 19

"disrespecting your parents"

There are many ways to disrespect your parents, but some of the main things I think are a no no, are...

1. Calling your parents by their first name

2. Disobeying commands

3. Being told a second or third time to do something that has been asked of.

4. Sneaking out/Not letting them know you're going out until last minute to avoid rejection

Kids these days take their parents for granted. They don't understand that parents are there for support and protection. Parents are vital for any family and if we don't treat them the way we would like to be treated, we are for sure going to lose them and regret everything.

Day 18

LOL, keep missing these things

"your beliefs"

I really don't know where to begin with this one. Well I guess first and foremost, everyone is entitled to their opinion regardless of the colour of their skin, the language they speak, they gender, their sexuality, religion and all of the above. What I can't tolerate is when people intrude and interrupt others in mid conversation and people who will always argue just to prove a point. Yes, this kind of contradicts my belief, but I do believe there is a fine line with freedom of speech and going overboard. For example, I had a friend the other day who I forgot the name of their dog. I'm not really close to this person, but I have heard of the dogs name every now and then, it's not exactly something we talk about everyday. Anyway, this person, as always went on arguing with me saying I should know the name of their best friend and that the topic at hand is not stupid (I realised that every conversation I have with this fellow ends up as an argument over the stupidest things, which I did not mean intentionally). The conversation then went on and I was getting tired and frustrated with this fellow, later on they then question how I got my job (I work at a pet store). The conversation that led to this massive explosion was when they mentioned how I should be considerate of dogs. I am thank you very much, knowing the name of someones dog is not my number one priority.

So moral of the story, when the point has been proven, it does not need to be extended any further than it should be.

I also believe in being open-minded. Many people I know these days are bitter and mislead, especially the young ones. I do not know how many conversations I have had with teenagers who have complained about their parents grounding them, or their friends doing something awful to them, or their teachers acting totally mental. They are very one-sided which frustrates me. They don't seem to understand that every story has two sides to it. One of course the person narrating it and the other as the person reading it. Teenagers are the readers. Another example, I have a friend who I told a story to about a boy we work with. She believes I am 100% right and he is 100% wrong and that he should suffer for all the wrongs he has done to me. What she doesn't understand is his part of the story. I tell her to not take sides but still she does because she thinks its the nobel thing to do, considering we are best friends. But I prefer she not be biased and not take sides, when this is clearly my issue.

I have other beliefs, but can't seem to think of more off the top of my head at this time (1.31am).

Day 17

"your highs and lows of this past year"

Highs:

Nelson Bay in February with David, Cesar, Andrea and Michal. So many memories, had such a blast.

Everytime the old Tubs group met up for dinner or lunch or movie night. I missed those days so much and its always nice to see my friends back together again, after most of us kind of lost contact through the years.

Red Rooster outings. Those people were like my third family (first being my own; second being my Tubs). They always made me feel young again and always knew how to have a blast.

Finishing uni for the year.

Meeting new people and finding new people to stalk ;), a.k.a, Dicksmith

Lows:

All those stupid fights we had up at Nelsons Bay, well not really me, more like Andrea and Michal.

Losing contact with my Tubs. We always said we'd keep in contact, but it just seems like certain people keep in contact with each other, rather than a whole group thing which is more upsetting.

The stupid fights that depressed the heck out of me whenever a certain friend from Red Rooster and I got into a fight. Why can't boys admit they are wrong? Why can't they ever apologise? Its freaking ridiculous. I don't know how many tears I wasted trying to get that boys attention. Never again.

Uni. Nothing more needs to be said.

Day 16

"where do you see your best friend in 10 years?"

I actually have multiple best friends, well really about two or three. So I guess I'll discuss two, Cesar and Josie.

Cesar will most definitely be doing something that makes lots of money and still in university studying to gain his Ph. D. Knowing him, he'll be happy as always, chilling with everyone, making new friends where ever he goes and I think, be living somewhere in the City. Maybe with me, maybe not with me. Either way I know that he will succeed in whatever he does and that our bond will forever remain strong.

Now Josie, will hopefully be gone from Red Rooster =P, she'll be travelling around the world or around Asia, absorbing the cultural differences, speaking Japanese and translating for people in high power. Maybe, she'll have a boyfriend, she's never been the type to be boyfriend orientated, but I know she'll be lucky in that area. She'll be living in an apartment somewhere not too far from the city, but will close to home where her family lives. She'll finally own those dogs she's always wanted and get everything she's ever tried to save for. May take some time, but she'll get there ;)

Day 15

Whoops, missed a couple of days

"your views on mainstream music"

I honestly have nothing against mainstream music. I like mainstream music, but I listen to music depending on the type of mood I'm in. I listen to a lot of "my generation" music. So people like Spice Girls, Nsync*, Backstreet Boys (unfortunately) and all that mumbo jumbo of my time. I've also been listening to a lot of remakes or covers by Glee and from what Glee remakes I usually go back to the original. To me music is for reminiscing; the good times, the bad times, the times when I really wanted to punch certain people in the face and the times when I just needed someones shoulder to cry on. I do listen to mainstream music, and I really don't care if I'm a follower or whatever.

Day 14

"Your earliest memory"

Don't remember how old I was at the time, but I went to a sleep over at a cousins house. My family and I were living in Dee Why, up in Northern Beaches and it was just tradition that the girl cousins would all sleep over at one another's houses and just watch movies and such. Anyway, slept in one of my cousins room on the mattress with my sister and two older cousins. Don't know what exactly happened during the night, but in the morning my uncle was cleaning up the room and came out screaming in Tagalog, what the heck is this?!?! Turns out he ate something, humans aren't supposed to eat. There was this, brown looking log, almost resembling a Mars Bar sitting on top of the mattress and out of curiosity, he eats it. Little does he know, I kinda shat myself the night before =P. That's one of my earliest memories

Day 13

"Somewhere you'd like to move or visit"

As cliche as this sounds, I'd love to go to New York. I want to know if it's as bad as movies depict. The way I see it, New York is dirty, crowded, polluted and everything in between. Theres hobo's around every corner, begging for cash or rummaging through dumpsters. People are in a rush to either catch the subway home, get to work or go shopping. I know that sounds very stereotypical of me, but I just want to know if its what people say.

I really wanna see Soho village and the so called "upper east side", if its all its cracked up to be. I probably wouldn't want to live there and be separated from everyone at home, but New York is definitely on my list of where to visit. Especially during Christmas

Day 12

"List your whole day"

• 12:50am - made some popcorn and watched the marathon of Jersey Shore season 1 on MTV
• 2am - went to bed listening to Bruno Mars
• 11:20am - woke up from an annoying prank caller
• 11:21am - realised uni results were released 21 minutes ago
• 11:30am - waiting impatiently for results to come up. nothing.
• 11:45am - uni results finally come up. 3 distinctions and a pass, averaging distinction for this semester =D
• 12pm: facebook
• 1pm: ate late breakfast/lunch
• 1:25pm: washed the dishes and used exercise bike for a bit
• 1:40pm: played Sims 3
• 3:30pm: mum came home with snacks =)
• 6pm: parents left for concert, leaving me and my sister chicken king for dinner
• 6:05pm: watching valentines day with the sister
• 7:20pm: gave up on valentines day and waited for the Oprah special on Sound of Music
• 7:55pm: writing what i did at 7.55pm

Day 11

Missed a couple of days =P

"Put your iPod on shuffle and write the first ten songs that pop up"

- Dance Dance by Fallout Boy

- Last Night by As yet

- Captains and Cruise Ships by Owl City

- Peacock by Katy Perry

- Janie's Got a Gun by Aerosmith

- Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen

- Only the Good Die Young by Glee

- Long Time Coming by Oliver James

- Stuck in the Middle by Jay Sean

- Angel by Kate Voegele

"Are you going to be playing, for the pure thrill of unreluctant desire?"

From "Dash & Lily's Book of Dares" by Rachel Cohn & David Levithan

Day 10

"Discuss your first love and your first kiss"

Don't believe I've ever had a first love, and my first kiss, well that's just for me to know and for anyone out there, to never find out ;).

Let's just say when I do fall in love with someone (if true love can ever be achieved) then I hope that this guy will go beyond the boundaries on what it means to be a boyfriend. Not just the typical roses and chocolates or holding hands in public or affectionate displays in public. I want him to message me good morning beautiful, every morning before I wake up; I want him to surprise me after work by just being there; I want him to not act like such a tough guy around me, but rather someone who is first and foremost my friend; I want to have endless conversations about the stupidest things that no one else understands; I don't want some typical love story; I want him to be way more creative than those 80's movies where the guy is standing outside her window with a stereo pumping up some cheesy love song; in short, I want someone who is cheesy when it comes to picking up girls, but when it comes down to the real business, doesn't refer to me as his girlfriend, but his best friend.

Be Inspired

Today I got the chance to see the new Westfield on Pitt Street in the city. First impression?

"This is some fancy shamancy shit..."

As soon as you walk in, or at least as soon as I walked in, I felt unclean and I guess a better word for it would be, unworthy. Unworthy to stand, let alone look at clothes, jewellery, watches, bags and all that other mumbo jumbo. One shirt at one of those stores was probably worth all my clothes COMBINED in my wardrobe. There were my usual kind of stores like Tree of Life and Supre (not really) but from where I was standing and observing, everything was, for the better word, expensive!

But there was this one store, a stationary store called kikki.K. More sophisticated than Typo, and more multipurpose. I LOVED all the stationary there. For some reason I have some weird like for fruit on stationary, so as soon as I saw the apple shaped stamp,the strawberry post-it notes, notebooks decorated in fruit decor, pencil cases, pens and bags covered with fruit, I felt like a kid in a candy store. The short combinations of bursts of laughter and high pitched squealing was quite embarrassing but enjoyable. Have not done that in a while. All in all, had a lovely day exploring the city, shopping around and taking photos =)

"Nothing happens unless first we dream"

Carl Sandberg

Day 9

"How you hope your future will be like"

Did I not answer a similar question like this?

Well to recap, hopefully successful in whatever field I have finally chosen. High paying job, not spending the rest of my adult life worrying about paying bills; Travelling the world, exploring new destinations and cultures; Hopefully had some kids with my lovely husband ;), but before I get there, have some success with the guys ;). A most of all, alive and in contact with everyone I know and love

Day 8

"A moment you felt more satisfied with life"

Haven't exactly experienced that moment yet. It has to be a combination of many, first paid job, group of new friends, finishing first year of uni, graduating year 12. All that mumbo jumbo. Can't say I'm satisfied yet, purely because I don't know how it feels like to be fully satisfied (sounds wrong O.o)

Day 7

"Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality"

These are extracts from the first site that came up on Google after searching Aries...

- Aries is a uniquely naive sign. Although they are independent, outgoing and assertive they are also surprisingly trusting, often innocently walking into the lion's den at times...

- Their gift is hat they are always children at heart and the world is always a magical place for them...

- No wonder woman born under Aries are forceful, dynamic and aggressive, and as a result these Aries women frequently find themselves with dilemmas surrounding their romantic relationships...

- A man had to be a "real man" to deal with an Aries woman, otherwise she intimidates him...

- Adventurous, independent and have competitive natures...

- Impulsive, act first, ask questions or have doubts later. Thats why their lives are filled with so much drama and sometimes accidents...

- Often travel to escape any feelings of being stuck or possessed...

- Love challenges. If everything is running smoothly, they are quite capable of going out and doing something to rock the boat...

This has me written all over ;)

Day 6

"Write 30 interesting facts about yourself"

1. I like to collect dolls, not barbies, more like stuffed animals. Almost every corner of my room contains some sort of toy.
2. I work at a pet store, and yet have no pets of my own. Also I study animal science at uni, and I'm the only person who doesn't own a pet.
3. I like reading classic stories, such as Peter Pan and Alice in Wonderland.
4. I tend to apologize for everything, even if it wasn't my fault.
5. I listen to possibly every kind of music; it's scares people.
6. I used to have dreams about attending Hogwarts. I'm still waiting for my letter ;).
7. I've never been surprised before in my life. By surprise I mean someone or a group of people plan something for me without me noticing. I wanna see what happens.
8. I like picking baby names for my future kids.
9. I'm loud when I want to be.
10. Singing in the car with my friends is an old past time.
11. I wouldn't call myself a stalker, but rather an admirer, from a distance ;).
12. I'm too scared to get another piercing in my ear.
13. People call me tough and strong because I yell a lot and hit people. Little do they know I'm actually the biggest wuss.
14. I used to be scared of the dark until the age of 14. To this very day, I dislike being in the dark, but I'm not afraid of it.
15. I'm very picky about everything. Food, boys, clothes you name it.
16. I watch a lot of movies and t.v shows. One of my life long ambitions is to one day own so many DVD's to occupy a bookshelf as wide and tall as my bedroom wall.
17. I say I'm very environmentally friendly but not as much as I'd like to be.
18. I tend to get jealous very easily and I feel a lot of guilt.
19. If I has to choice to be good at singing or dancing, I'd choose to dance.
20. When and if I have the guts to, I want a tattoo of a peace sign on my wrist, a strawberry behind my ear, a phoenix on my back and some sort of writing that goes along my spine.
21. My nephew and I said last year that we would never stoop so low as to apply for a job at a fast food joint. We caved in, he got a job at McDonald's and I got a job at Red Rooster. It was the best decision of my life.
22. People tend to come to me for advice, but when I need advice, people seem lost and confused.
23. After 19 years of my life, I went to my first concert this year. My dad even beat me to the punch, he went to three concerts before my first.
24. I spend my money on some of the most useless stuff. Couple of years ago, went all out with the pokemon cards. Didn't even know what to do with them.
25. Once I've got the money to go, I want to travel. Thailand for the beaches and parties. UK for the white pastey men and site seeing. LA for the shopping and Disneyland. Miami for Disneyland and beach and Africa for the safaris.
26. Favourite animal is the giraffe =).
27. Favourite colour is blue and red =).
28. Love sushi and sushi trains.
29. I'm too nice. It's a weakness.
30. I am really bored and now tired.

guilty pleasures

#5: stroking super soft skin, especially a baby's skin

#4: browsing for baby clothes and thinking what I would dress my kids in

#3: picking future baby names and telling everyone

Day 5

"A time you thought about ending your own life"

Never have. We were brought to this earth for a particular purpose. Why would we selfishly take our lives when we haven't fulfilled our purpose yet? It's selfish not only to ourselves but to everyone else in the world who is yet to see the greatness and talent we have to bestow.

Day 4

"Your views on religion"

I'm Catholic. But not a very good one at it. I don't go to church as much as I should. I don't embrace my religion as much as I would like. Everyone is entitled to their opinion on religion, so I do not argue with people who question God, because I know that he does exist. I cannot force people to sway one way or another when it comes to religion. They will see the light and when that day comes we'll all be there with open arms. What I do wonder is why some families marry within religions or within certain castes. A friend told me about her friend at uni who is only allowed to date guys of not only her same ethnicity, same religion and caste. What I do have an opinion on is that nothing should get in the way of who you choose to spend your life with. Regardless of religion, ethnicity, colour or sex, people should be entitled to be with who they choose, because in the dark we are all the same anyway right?

Day 3

"Your views on drugs and alcohol"

I'm not a big drinker, but when I do go out drinking with friends I don't go overboard. I find getting drunk in public places embarrassing and humiliating. I mean why must someone expose themselves like that to everyone? What kind of impression is that going to give people don't know? But I do enjoy the occasional drink here and there. The only drugs I take are prescription medications, nothing for stress or mental illness or depression, just medication for my diabetes. I've heard of drug abuse and drug use stories from some friends and I hear how it tears families apart, emotionally, financially and physically. I would never do such a thing to hurt my friends and families, not even if it's a one off thing.

Day 2

I cheat on these things anyway =P

"Where'd you like to be in 10 years?"

29 years old, first off, alive. Finished university, hopefully doing more study if I am interested in more study. Living on my own, well not really on my own, maybe with a couple of friends at a beach home near Coogee or in a studio apartment in the city. Successful job doing some type of research or welfare work for animals. Travelling the globe. Possibly got a boyfriend ;). Rich. Plenty of pets (dogs). Still in contact with all my good friends and finally, doing plenty of conservation work around the world.

30 Day Challenge - Day 1

Found this "30 Day Challenge" on someones Tumblr. Here's Day 1:

"Your current relationship status? If single discuss why?"

Single and very happy. I don't find it very necessary for someone of my age to be tied down to a man especially when I'm pretty content with what's going on with my life right now with my friends and family. Yes, I would like to not be single one day, but at the moment I am not intentionally looking for a man. When the time is right, it will happen. Right now there's nothing wrong with a little flirting and perving from a distance.

"people think a soulmate, success, money, car and houses will bring happiness... when really its the other way around"

maybe when I'm completely loaded, I'll treat myself to an early Xmas/Birthday/Graduation present =D

introducing me .. MY version

i like to procrastinate

i like the feeling of getting new assignments, but never actually DOING them

i like to shop for school supplies and testing them out before i actually begin uni

i like reading in pure silence, noises ruin the atmosphere and the mood of the book

i like the sound the holy communion makes when it hits the bowl

vanilla scent makes me weak

the smell of fruit makes everything feel better

i like to eat ice cream on cold days, yet sacrifice the consequences of brain freezes

i never get tired of the beach

i like making people laugh and smile

peas and frogs are my ultimate hates, no coincidence that they are both green

i don't like birds, ever since i got swooped by one, TWICE, on my way to school

i tend to say i hate certain things, even when i haven't tried them yet, such as VEGEMITE

i hate people who edit they're pictures to make themselves look flawless, yet i applaud them on how great they can edit photos

i think toes are gross

i think highlighters that smell of fruits are the best invention ever

i love watching old school tv shows, like Full House and Friends and laugh about how i understand the jokes now

i love the sound of a babies laughter, wish i could record it and use it as my ringtone

i love candid photos, yet whenever i attempt to do one, i looked stoned

i like to dance in the middle of the night, when everyone is asleep, so i can dance up and down the hallway, and no one judging me

i don't like how unmanageable my hair is

i like the feel of spiked hair on the palm of my hand

i wish i had hair that i can run my fingers through in the morning and it still looks presentable

i think mullets are gross, but when guys grow their hair to a certain length, i think its sexy

i've always dreamt of having hair like Serena from Sailor Moon

i don't see what the big deal about salmon is

but i love sushi and the idea of sushi trains, reminds me of Madeline

i think people my age and older who watch old classic disney movies are the best people in existence

i don't know how to save money

i'm too nice to certain people

i love guys with accents, girls are ok, it just depends on the accent

i don't like how people from Boston talk

i think bananas are the sexiest fruits

i like to identify people by the way they smell

i like the sound of someone typing really fast

i like the colour blue, but sometimes i think i like it too much

i think parents who try to be technologically advanced is funny

a guy who plays an instrument, is automatically hot in my books

i don't like it when girls pile their faces on with three-layers of makeup and think they're hot

girls who look natural or wear makeup neutral to their complexion are beautiful

i tend to apologise for everything, even if its not my fault and even if nothing bad has happened

i like the smell of a new book

i like shirts with stupid sayings

i like every type of music, it scares most people

the sun makes me smile

anything in baby form just looks better

i love the concept of irony

i like music that means something, more than just lyrics matching to a catchy tune

i like cheesy pick up lines and corny jokes used by guys to score girls

i like wearing heels, but hate being taller than everyone. especially guys

i like stuff toys, that i give my ones human names

i think katy perry and scarlett johannson are the hottest women on the earth

guys with nice biceps are 100% hot in my book

i don't like randomly bumping into people i know or used to know

i dont like cats

i think sarcasm is awesome

whoever decided to combine chocolate and strawberries together, is pure genius

i want a tattoo of a peace sign on my wrist

i think there is such a thing as too many tattoo and piercings

i like giraffes and pandas

i say awesome and apparently too much

i like to wear shorts in winter

i like wearing big chunky rings because it hurts whenever i punch someone

i like to wear baggy clothes and guys clothes, especially if it smells like the guy who owns it

i think fake nails are disgusting

"if you wanna know here it goes. gonna tell you this, the part of me that'll show if you're close. gonna let you see everything but remember that you asked for it. i'll try to do my best to impress but it's easier to let you take a guess at the rest, but you wanna hear what lives in my brain. My heart, will you ask for it, for your perusing? At times confusing, slightly amusing, introducing me....."

guilty pleasure...

#9: resting on the edge of the car window with my head out the window, wind blowing in my hair

# 8: baby animals or anything in baby form

#7: wearing sunnies indoors to look mysterious ;)

#6: cheesy sayings and corny jokes that'll win a girls heart (my heart to be exact ;)

sometimes, in more ways than one...

guilty pleasure ...

#13: singing into a hairbrush every morning after my shower before work or uni

#12: songs that relate to how I'm feeling or relate to what I want to feel

#11: re-watching romance movies thinking, why can't my life be like that?

#10: mamma's cooking

guilty pleasure ...

my 16 guilty pleasures ...

#16: the smell of fresh fruit and vanilla on a summer day .. just the smell

#15: making a collection .. of anything

#14: daydreaming my life was a movie .. a fairytale to be exact

PLEASE HELP ME?!

how long can someone stay quiet, for someone else to realise they were in the wrong?

shopping cart

so in love with these shoes!!! simple, but loving it!!!!!

Silent treatment much?

it's never too early to wish ;)

Christmas is around the corner and well .. here's my list:

- DVD's DVD's DVD's: I'm currently trying to finish about 5 collections. Scarlett Johansson, Ryan Reynolds, Christian Bale, Hugh Jackman and Disney/Pixar films. I can happily say .. I am no where near finished any of these =D

- CLOTHING: I love the printed tee's. The old vintage type ones with those stupid saying =P .. well not really stupid, just very "creative"

- BAG: I want another "Urban Originals" bag or a backpack I can take to uni. Sick and tired of the pains in my shoulder having to hold all my heavy books!

- TICKETS: for Good Vibes 11', please please please?

- SHOES: been looking everywhere for a specific design in chucks, that say "i heart...." totally cute! Or the all black chuck. Classic styles

- BOOKS: you can never have enough books ;). Lately I've been looking at love stories in the time of war, been looking for particular ones and the one that really interests me is the one from the Australian War Memorial... "Stories of Love & War From the Collection of Australian War Memorial". I've also taken an interest in myths and legends. I have one about the heroes of Greek mythology and I'd like to look into Chinese myths and legends. The Chinese have thousands of legends that are just pure intriguing.

"No one mourns the wicked"

Yesterday, I had the most memorable, spectacular, amazing, no words could describe it day in a while. Yesterday, I got to experience several events, all in one place, all in one day.

Guess it all started about the time when I woke up from pure excitement, because it was the day I would finally get to see WICKED @ the Capitol Theatre, with my dearest friend Josie. Show didn't start till around 3pm so we decided to "bum" around for a bit, check out the city, explore a little.

So like the asians we are, we went to Haymarket for a little lunch and what not. It was a typical Sunday, asians everywhere, sipping on their soups, slurping their noodles, gulping down their bubble teas, taking pictures, shopping, shopping, shopping, taking more photos, the usual. Little did Josie and I know, the Moon Festival was on, and mooncakes were everywhere! Now a mooncake, is like a paste-filled biscuit. They're sold in most asian stores, but their biggest significance is on the Moon Festival, which celebrates the moon, in short. There were asians everywhere buying mooncakes and celebrating. It was very magical.

Josie and I decided we'd seen enough mooncakes to last us a lifetime, so we moved down to the Chinese gardens, after getting our Easyway ofcourse ;). I had seen a lot of photos from people, who are sitting in front of the waterfall looking "non-chalant" (doesn't work with me unfortunately =P), so we decided let's check out this waterfall. The view was beautiful, although small, was nice to get away from the hustle and bustle of the city. It was even nicer seeing people walk pass in traditional clothes, taking photos by the lake or the waterfall with theirpalms together. But it was funnier seeing people walk pass in traditional clothes, with runners on. So as asian as we were (mainly Josie), we took photos by the bushes, the waterfall, the koi fish, the bridge, the stones, the waterfall, the bushes, the big tree, the benches, the trees, you know it. Just as we were about to leave, everyone was crowding around this little meetingarea, and there was slow music playing in the background. Next thing I see are three women walking down an aisle with white rose bouquets, black strapless dresses, and a man at the end of the aisle wearing a black tux and white tie, with a white rose in this top pocket. Wedding. How sweet, a nice small wedding. The wife looked beautiful =), she walkeddown with her mother, and the traditional "here comes the bride music was playing". How sweeet.

By that time, it was 2.30pm so we quickly walked back to Capitol Theatre to get ready for the show to start. Small theatre, beautiful architecture, sophisticated atmosphere. The seats we were sitting in had a pretty great view, Dress Circle, row K in the middle. My latest obsession: WICKED! And no, my favourite song was not Defying Gravity, although it was one of my favourites, "The Wizard and I" was my favourite, next to "As Long As You're Mine". The girl who played Elphaba was spectacular! LOVED LOVED LOVED HER!!! The guy who was meant to play Fiyero, Rob Mills, think moved back to Melbourne, so I was kinda scared we'd get some weirdo who can't sing, but we got Tim Campbell, who by surprise was pretty good. Thoroughly enjoyed his performance. Overall, BEST MUSICAL! (sorry Moulin Rouge).

woman of the week...

Miranda Kerr .. she's such a gorgeous woman, and now she's preggers =D .. She's gotta make beautiful babies

man of the week

LOOOVVVVVEEEEEEEEEE SKINS ... FREDDIE!!!

"You're making me mad now, Effy. And that's exactly what love's supposed to do..."

"Your kindness amazes me..."

Since when was kindness a sin? Or why is it, that every time I attempt to be nice, it gets thrown back at my face and used as a dish rag, then is continuously torn and trampled over? I was told that my kindness amazes people. That despite the crap I go through in life, I still manage to live life with a smile on my face and become even kinder to those who hurt me. I can't exactly comprehend and explain it, but another friend managed to summon it up to "when you're smitten with someone, you go overboard". It got me thinking then, about the last couple of incidences when I went "overboard". I guess the first early memory I have was in year 3, maybe earlier, but this is the most significant one I can remember. It was recess or lunchtime can't remember the exact time, but our class was eating indoors and some guy asked for my chocolate. I kept saying no, kinda the thing I do which is play hard to get, ish (=P). Anyway, this went on for all lunch and about halfway through lunch, I gave in and went back to him and gave him my chocolate. Minor as this seems, it's seemed to have escalated into to degree where my kindness not only makes people smile, but also sickens them. I just can't seem to please people, which sickens me...

i love the way you lie

Inception - Mind blowing indeed

So I was saving this movie for one of my close friends. Unfortunately it was kinda impossible since he already had advance screening tickets and I was working that night, and other people wanted to watch it with me. So i felt obligated to watch it with them.

So here's the breakdown. There's this guy who has awesome skills of jumping into your dreams and technically steals, Leo DiCaprio. He's like your average guy, with a family on the side who he never sees, also whom we never see till the very end. Leo's offered the deal of a lifetime, implant an idea in some random guys head and you'll be with your family again.

Now, here's where the movie starts to get complicated. Inception - implanting an idea into someone else's subconscious. Inception requires to go in a dream, within a dream, within that dream. SO, in short, three dreams in total. Nuff said right? Easy enough right? Nothing is ever easy or simple in this movie. Which is what makes the movie was awesome. Yet, it doesn't exceed the boundaries of complexity. It borderlines overcomplexity and moderate complexity. So yeah, in short, it doesn't make you feel dumb if you don't understand it the first time. I could recount how many times I sat in the cinema, asking my friend next to me, "so which dream are they in?", "why is he there?", "what's going on?". And I can bet that I wasn't the only one thinking this.

On to the acting, SUPERB!!! Top actors and actresses remaining true to their roles. But I must say, best performance, by Marion. Despite her attempts at hiding her French accent, she was insanely scary, but in a good way. One of my favourite scenes, when Ellen Page enters Leo's dream of the night his wife (Marion) died in the hotel room on the night of their anniversary. The look of Marion's face as they continue up the elevator, and the way she just overshadows Ellen Page, BEAUTIFUL!!!

One other scene which caught my eye was the fight scene in the hotel corridor with JGL. Which brings me to the effects. FUCKING AWESOME!!! Words can't describe it! Seriously.

My rating .. 5 corn chips out of 5, 10 out of 10 gold stars! A+, all of the above.

16

haven't done this in a while, but I'm pretty bored at the moment, so I thought I'd reminisce about the good ol' days ... so here it goes, 16 random facts about me =D

1. I still have no idea what I wish to accomplish with the course I'm doing at uni, and it scares the heck out of me. I do animal science, yet I have never had a pet in my life or had any first hand experiences handling animals until I started university.

2. Certain songs that I listen to, remind me of certain time in my life or of certain "people" (if you catch my drift), most of which I have linked together myself. For example, the song "This is me" from Camp Rock, reminds me of the last couple of days before HSC officially began and I experienced a terrible emotional wreckage.

3. I can't save money to save my life. As soon as I get paid, I go on one massive shopping spree, mainly for DVD's, which bugs my mum so much. One day when I move out into my own house, I plan to have literally an entire library of DVD's.

4. I went to my first concert officially this year on my birthday. My dad went to his first concert way before I did. It was the BEST day of my life.

5. After watching Toy Story 3, I never want to give my toys away, NEVER.

6. I sometimes lie to people about the mini "adventures" I'll be taking in the next couple of years so I can hear them say they'll miss me, or beg me to not go. Like I plan to move to the U.K with my sister and finish my studies there, no one says anything.

7. I love to daydream, especially just before going to bed and during lectures. I daydream of the most cliche things, like meeting a guy who will love me, getting married, getting myself into midlife crisis's about guys, travelling around the world and one of my favourite things to daydream about, when two guys fight over the same girl, i.e. me. (yeah I know, how LAME of me)

8. Lately I've been really excited about babies and the notion of having babies. I think babies are the most beautiful things in the world.

9. One of these days, when I've finished university, got a stable job, that pays heaps, I plan to move out in a house that overlooks the beach, tall glass window, with a balcony where I can sit at night or early in the morning and watch the ocean and sun rise and set. I want my own little library and DVD library in my house which is hidden away in a secret passageway, a backyard with a rainforest backdrop, three dogs names Finn, Pinkie and OJ.

10. People think it's weird that I find certain women hot, such as Scarlett Johansson and Katy Perry. Well to them I say, open your minds and maybe when you're older you'll understand.

11. I've been working at Red Rooster for just over 8 months and despite that aggravating customers and complaints, I could never be happier than when I'm at work with my friends laughing over stupid things.

12. Along with collecting DVD's, I also collect a variety of classic books such as Alice in Wonderland, Peter Pan and The Tell-Tale Heart. I kinda want to, but at the same time haven't really started it, collect old books from secondhand book stores, with those special messages written on the inside, like in "Definitely, Maybe, Yes", when Isla Fisher collected Jane Eyre books hoping to find the one book with her dad's message in it.

13. My worst fear is being alone. Not being able to either help anyone, no one needing my help, or when people have neglected and abandoned me. Luckily no one had done that.

14. I didn't think this was such an OCD thing, but before I go to bed I turn my alarm clock on and off, on and off because I get paranoid that it won't go off in the morning and I end up rushing to get to work or uni. Every time I get out of bed or tuck myself in again, I have to turn my alarm on and off again. Also another OCD thing is that I hate peas, so whenever I'm eating fried rice or something that's got peas in it, I must take out all the peas and leave them aside.

15. I've met some of the most amazing people ever this year. And they make me feel young again.

16. I've recently gotten into "Man v.s Wild" and every time I get hungry or someone else gets hungry and there's nothing to eat, I quickly think of my Man v.s Wild skills. It's heaps lame!

Will Cotton

I happened to stumble upon this name .. Will Cotton, whilst I was getting my daily fix of celebrity gossip. I was looking up Katy Perry's new album art for her new album "Teenage Dreams". She's lying in clouds of fairy floss pretty much bare naked. And she mentioned the name Will Cotton, so I thought I'd look up this guy.

I'm really into pop art and fantasy type of art and when I searched up Will Cotton, I fell in love. Don't EXACTLY what made me fall in love with his art, but what I do love is that inner warm feeling inside the moment I stare at his art. It made me feel overjoyed, I just wanted to smile. Nothing makes anyone more happy than when they're munching down on lollies.

This week I'm loving...

The countdown to spring...

Completion of a collection...

An appreciation for guys clothing...

Any reason to celebrate...

Power to the woman

Couple of days ago a friend said something that struck me. She said, that women are very intriguing. They have such an amazing intuition when it comes to guys and everything else in life, its just inexplainable. Which is absolutely 100%, and in my case it makes me vulnerable. I had a little dilemma which involved a guy and a couple of mixed signals both returning and receiving. Using my "womanly intuition" I was able to interpret these signs as a possible reciprocal relationship. Yet problem is, he has a girlfriend. How you wonder how the whole vulnerable part plays in? See this is another extraordinary fact about the woman's mind. Unlike most males, we tend to step back and evaluate the situation beforehand rather than jumping the gun and possibly making fools of ourselves. If I was to continue returning the signals, I'd be making a fool of myself and also being shut down risking utter embarrassment. Life is so freaking complex, yet women always know a way out of complexity .. me on the other hand .. I struggle.

man of the week

JGL .. hmmmmm*, nothing more needs to be said

woman of the week

I miss skins ..

woman of the week...

Despite her nose, Lea Michele is pretty awesome .. GLEE finale tomorrow night =D, woohoo

man of the week...

VINNY D from JERSEY SHORE! All this talk of Jersey Shore from David, reminded me of Vinny =P

Art of Awkwardness .. part ?

I love watching other people in awkward situations, but when its me being the awkwardee, then its a TOTAL different story.

So being school holidays and all, I've been working pretty much everyday this week. And being school holidays and all, EVERYONE is at the shopping centre trying to get into those sales everywhere, so it's inevitable that they're bound to get hungry. It's lunchtime, I'd probably say just past the peak of rush hour (lunch) but not entirely finished, so maybe around 1pm. There's about fifteen or so people lined up at all three cashiers, I'm in the middle. There's this couple, an Aboriginal couple (before I go any further, I would like to say that I am not being racial or stereotyping Aboriginal people), they're probably early 40's to mid 40's. I do the usual meet and greet ...

Hi, how are you? What would you like today?

The two don't answer, so I take that as they're still deciding what to eat. In the mean time, the couple start pulling out money from all possible pockets pulling out all loose change, 20c, 10c, 5c and an occassional $1 they'd find. About twenty seconds of rumaging through their pockets, the lady yells out, for all other customers to hear ...

Go pay for your slut!

She throws all her loose change at the counter in front of me and walks off, before taking one final glance at me. You do not understand how awkward I was feeling at the very moment. I didn't know what to say to the man left stranded at the counter, having to pick up all the loose change. I looked around hoping no one else heard what the lady had called me. So being the best cashier I could be I finally pucked up the courage to say something ...

How may I help you today sir?

Stupidest thing to say! He man just shakes his head and slowly begins to pick up all the loose change. The lady behind him just tried her best not to laugh and not look at my lost face. All I could think of was, was she calling me a slut? And what have I ever done to her? Such an embarassing moment, everyone watching and listening, I couldn't exactly hide either, which made it worse. Don't know if this relates, but last week I was asked at work if I was pregnant, because I called in sick one MORNING. Any links there? ;) LOL

p.s: I finally get my results from uni tomorrow! WISH ME LUCK =D

Freeeeeeeeeeeeedom

I'M FREEE!!!! Well technically I was free as of the 24th of July ;), but still I'M FREEEEEEEEE!!!! The feeling is exhilirating. I no longer feel that ongoing strain in my backside that all my uni work would cause. One whole month of not having to worry about when this assignment is due, or when this exam starts. One whole month of freedom!

So now its down to business, and by business I mean working my ass off at work for minimal wage. Don't get me wrong, I love my work. Not exactly, I love the people at work who make everything better by just being there. Their presence just makes me smile, especially particular people. But I do hate actually having to deal with customers. Being in the fast food industry just made me realise how picky, rude, arrogant and impatient people are! One day I swear I'm going to crack. That's what sucks about being at the "front" of the store, everyone has their eyes on you, watching your every move and how long its gonna take for you to prepare their food and one move could set them off.

Anyway, so I'm gonna work my ass off this month so I can go on a holiday with some friends at the end of the year. Exciting I know. I've saved up quiet a lot of money, but still, I could have saved more if I thought about it.

In short, I'M FREEEEEEEE!!!

"I wanna be a billionaire, so freaking bad..."

How-To

More awkwardness

It seems like everywhere I go, awkwardness follows me. Today on the train on the way home from the zoo, there was this woman who got on the train at Redfern. The moment the doors opened, you could hear this faint yelling in the distance .. "HOLD ON!"

I quickly began looking for this random voice who is yelling in the distance to hold on. And I see two women at the top of the stairs quickly trying to get pass the crowd to get onto the train. Both were blonde, both were oldish and both seemed like bogans (no offence). The doors close and only one of the girls manage to get through, the other is standing outside the doors staring at her friend, yelling at the guard to open the doors. She eventually gets through and they take a seat. One of them asks this poor little asian woman to move her bag, although her bag is sitting on her lap, and a nice man who also seems like a bogan sacrifices his seat to let the other friend sit there. Even though it's crowded and its peak hour these two girls were the loudest in the carriage. Majority of the train ride, they're sitting there hugging one another, seemed a bit weird at first, but I didn't bother to turn around and observe. Then there's a man who works for Cityrail standing by the stairs and continually shakes his head for some reason. So one of the two blonde girls gets off at Strathfield. The other woman gets from her seat and yells through the closed doors, "I'LL RING YOU AT 6 OKAY?!" She stands there and watches her friend leave as the train moves by.

Here is where the awkwardness begins. So there's an empty seat next to her, and over ten people standing up, all squashed together in this warm carriage. I assume the lady was drunk, because like the lady from my previous "Art of awkwardness" post, she continually kept repeating herself. "DOES ANYONE WANT TO SIT?"

From Strathfield all the way to about Parramatta, she kept repeating "DOES ANYONE WANNA SIT NEXT TO ME? THERE'S A SPARE SPOT NEXT TO ME? ANYONE? WHY DOESN'T ANYONE WANT TO SIT WITH ME? DOES EVERYONE WANT TO STAND UP? ANYONE WANT TO SIT?"

My friend and I just stared at each other, we both were thinking, that we would only sit if the other had a spot next to each other. The man from Cityrail standing by the stairs, kept shaking his head and softly giggled. One guy was mumbling things to a guy across the carriage from him about how crazy this woman was. This woman had thousands of stories to tell.

Once my friend and I found a seat next to each other, no one choose to sit next to the "crazy" lady. One man took the liberty to sit next to her, but he didn't know the awkwardness the rest of us in the carriage went through before he got on at Parramatta. I stared at the this man across from me who seemed to laugh everytime the lady kept trying to talk. She spoke to the Cityrail man about a boy was apparently got sliced in half by a train. The Cityrail man had nothing to say but,"I've heard, but not seen." It was quiet fascinating. Then she changed the topic and started talking to the man who offered his seat to her friend. She kept calling him a gentleman and that he was the only gentleman on the train, unlike the other hundred or us men on the train.

Oh, and one more thing, whilst she was telling everyone her stories, she was busily rolling up cigarettes in front of everyone. VERY funny.

This next story isn't really funny, but more embarassing and TOTALLY awkward. I got to work today to visit my manager, because I'm nice like that ;). Well remember my "so-called" friend who doesn't want to talk to me anymore, because I said a couple of things which upset them? Yeah well I got to work today, this certain person was working and they totally ignored me. Didn't bother to acknowledge my presence. So my manager decided to make him notice...

"_ _ _ _ _ say hello to Natasha."
awkward silence
"Say hello _ _ _ _ _"
awkward silence. Me staring at this person and thinking, this is just humiliating.

So this person continues to ignore me, and not even bother to say hello. So my manager decides to confront him, in front of the WHOLE store. She pretty much spilled everything out, "why aren't you talking to her? She apologized right? What do you want her to do, beg on her knees? What did she do wrong?"

I pretty much hid behind a wall, trying not to cry. It was quiet embarassing, but I knew it was HEAPS embarassing from this person who was being confronted in front of everyone in the store. I didn't know what to do. I want to step in a stop her, but I felt that this person needed to be taught a lesson. Yet, knowing this person, they won't learn. So I decided to leave so that she would stop torturing the poor person. Hopefully it worked =S.

The art of awkwardness ... part 3

HERE IT IS AGAIN! Well it wasn't really awkward for me, I felt more helpless and cruel for not doing anything, but it was awkward deciding what to do. But here's the story. A couple of weeks ago, couple of friends and I decided to "study" in the library whilst finishing off a little project for a friend of ours. Me and one of my friends were walking/racing to work to give our manager a gift, and she got all teary, so we decided to leave (we're not cruel like that, trust me). But on our way back to the library there is this little, well not really little more like a ten year old Indian girl standing by the front counter in the library just crying out loud. We slowly walked passed her because we were wondering if we should do anything. We automatically thought maybe she's just been seperated from her parents, and although the library is a small place, for a little child, it's like getting lost in the woods.

So we're still walking slowly pass her and we notice what seemed like a puddle surrounding her. Mind you, it was raining that day, so we assumed she got wet in the rain and just left a puddle. We felt kinda guilty just leaving the poor girl there, but moments later the librarian comes running to the girls aid, wipes her face and makes her stand BEHIND the front counter. And then it made all sense ... she peed her pants in the library. That's when it got awkward. The little girl stared at me, once I noticed what she had done. What was awkward about this was I was so tempted to laugh, but I knew it was horribly wrong to laugh at. If you see something like that you don't laugh, but when your telling someone else about it or someone else is telling you about it, you cant help but laugh.

I felt so helpless. I didn't know what to do, my friend and I didn't know what to do. And I'm sure if I knew whart she had done BEFORE the librarian came along, I most probably would ahve made things worse by laughing. Then being shamed in public by some random, telling me I have no respect, blah blah blah.

The journey home

My sister has been home for almost a week already, and fair enough, she's jet lagged and adjusting to the weather, but that doesn't excuse yourself! You're home now, meaning you should start cleaning up after yourself like you haven't been gone for freaking 3 months!

But at the same time, it a plus for me, because now I can bludge away like she was never gone for 3 months and neglect my chores =P .. Kidding! ahahahaha

"Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone..."

Madonna, Like A Prayer

girls of the week

FAMATIC!!!! These girls have been through so much with me =) i didn't say they had to be celebrities

xoxo